I am Self-Made

So..I rescued a bearded dragon from the grasps of some 8 year old and his father who does nothing to help the poor beardie.

My mom's friend's friend's son got the beardie for a birthday present in october..and now they were trying to get rid of it because 'he can't take care of it anymore' so i said hell yeah ill take him! i asked for pictures..and  they sent me some through e-mail..and the beardie looked healthy and decent sized..so i said yeah ill take him.

go to pick him up..he's hiding in his house with his head peakin out..looked fine and normal..a little scared, but healthy.
bring him home and lifted up his house..and it all went downhill from there.

very very thin from the pictures this guy sends me..and the poor guy can't even walk..he has MBD really bad at 9 months i don't think it's reversible.

he was living in HORRIBLE conditions...he was only in a 10 gallon take with way to much crap in his tank to manuever around if he had his disease for so long..he had calci sand..which is a big no no causes impaction..looks like hes justbeen eating nasty pellets for a while. not good at all. and No uvb light. cause of his MBD

he is in a 30 gallon tank..with a heat light and a UVB light now..newspaper for bedding until i get something else..he is eating crickets and i gave him waxworms...im putting romaine lettuce and cut up cumumbers in his tank so hopefully one day he will try it. I gave him a lukewarm bath half water half pedilyte...fed him a lil unsweetend apple sauce...

i have soooo much hope in this lil dude that even though he is most likely permanently disfigured and will never be able to walk right again, that he can some how be strong and be happy. If he can't get better soon im gunna take the poor guy to the vet and see what they say..i might just have to put him down.

and that just makes me very very upset...ive only had him for 2 days and im already attached. He is alert..and tries to eat..he moves and somehow climbs on his lil house..i think he still has the will to live..so i will help him as much as i can..i dont care if he will become a 'special needs' lizard ill sill love him to death..he's a fighter..to have to put up with a evil 8 year old abusing him for 9 months of his life.

i hoping for the best...i hope the little guy pulls through

ugh...everything seems to be clumped all in one week..


 have an essay due this friday
got my chem final on monday
have 2 essays to rewrite and then write an essay about how i fixed those two essays due on friday
have a math test on wednsday


it sucks.

i got the job at walgreens and im excited...i just need to get the drug test results back which obviously i passed since i dont do drugs.

i got transferred to dominicks in shorewood and my first day was sunday..im suppose to work tomorrow but im quitting...i was gunna call off cause theres no way i can get an essay written in one day...a good one that is...plus i need to study for my chem...and i dunno what they scheduled me after thursday...so o well.

im just plain out quitting not giving them a two week notice..i dont really care..i dont like shorewood so whatever.
im gunna quit in the morning so they have time to find someone to cover for my 4 hours and 15 minute shift..ooo wow...ugh.

i hate school.

i feel so discouraged and dumb right now its not even funny...but whatever...just 2 more friggen weeks of this crap...

i wouldnt start at walgreens for 3 weeks...so that would be awesome to have that 3 week vacation from work i need it to study for all my finals and write my friggen papers!! >_<

i really hate having anxiety attacks out of no where...

just happen to have my heart start to pound and not be able to breathe...now im shaking like a leaf...

ugh..

ive been thinking about how theres only 3 weeks left of the semester and i wanna get my grades up...and that i have to drive tomomorrow and bam...anxiety attack...

ugh...i hate being so damn shaky..using scott's proair seemed to help my breathing a little bit..but once i start thinking about it it will all come back again...this sucks...its 2 in the morning i need to get up at 8...-_-

YES!


so i got the best phone call ever today at 9:40 AM that woke me up...


i got a SECOND interview with the store manager!!! 
hell friggen yeah!! 

omg  if i get this job ill be so happy!

god and ihope as soon as i do...the union ladies come to tell me that ive been kicked out of shorewood..
o man that would be awesome id prolly tell them to fuck off and walk out!! :3

yay!!
this totally made my day.

I hate walmart.

that is all.

screw them.


Dad called me that cvs in joliet is hiring so i applied there...since the cvs in lockport isn't hiring..and walgreens hasnt called me back so whatever...


I <3 Lady GaGa she's awesome..

I have 3 page paper due tomorrow and I made it to my third page =]  i haven't had time to even think about this damn thing for the past week...so i brought my crap to work today and was able to write a bunch of notes of what i thought of so i can type it up when i got home...so happy that we were slow today...when i left at 8 we had 101 in...so i doubt we did that much more.


I'm lovin lady gaga right now...i wanna try and be her for halloween..so maybe i could learn how to sew by making her black bodysuit that she wears in her poker face video...cept mine wont be one sleeved...i'd just have both sleeves and add the hood type deal that she always wears with her outfits...and maybe if im BRAVE enough ill try and bleach my hair and dye it platinum blond O_O and maybe get bangs...o god i dunno ifi could do that...that would be insane...haha

i should make a vote with all my friends if i should do that or not...maybe i would O_o if they think i'd look good with it.
summer SHOULD be coming soon...i need to work out so im not all flabby...and so im in shape to do all the lovely yard work that has mine and my mom's name on it...

i totally wanna have a party this summer...last summer me and my mom didn't have our crap together since the divorce was finalized last june...we should have the party in june to celebrate that my dad's been gone for a year haha..o i hope summer will be fun...

i need a fun summer...really bad.
i want my mom's boyfriend to start our 4 wheeler i miss riding that thing it was so much fun..i plan to take it to the park if he gets it started...even though thats putting me at risk for getting a ticket if the cops find me...but i doubt it mwahaha...


...well back to writting my paper about how consumerism is bad for the country!!  D=<

so me and scott got our english papers back...and needless to say we weren't happy..

this guy grades like a retard.

he told us to put our thesis sentence at the end of the intro paragraph...i did..
then i get a lil comment underlining my thesis statment saying ' this sounds like your thesis statement blah blah blah' like it didn't belong there...when he said to put it there..

he wrote about how i cited this author too much and should give him credit and quote him for it..
well...what the hell? you give me two essays to ready and form an arguement on and want me to give evidence...the only evidence i can use are from those essays...so yeah im gunna have to repeat what they said...just in my own words to show my arguement..what do you expect me to do? just pull out some random bullcrap from my ass and make it sound like its valid and i know its right?? id prolly get points off for that becaues its fake evidence...

this guy is retarded.


and for my interview...

i guess it went okay..

i was a lil shocked when this guy told me that they do 500 a day... my face was prolly like O_O
dominicks does...700...a week...thats shameful..haha..
they have a pill counter robot thing so that would be awesome..

he said my application looks good so i hope to god they call me back..
i hate dominicks at this point and i just wanna get the hell out of there..
but i knew that i could somehow stay at my pharmacy and not transfer...i would.

but those damn union ladies i wanna strangle *Shakes fist*

UGH!!

so..dominicks is frusterating the hell out of me...and if i didnt have that interview at walgreens tomorrow..i probably would be stressing out so much right now. but...im not.

So..i walk into work..and go to punch in..and i heard someone call my name..i look and theres this lady..and shes like 'do you remember me?'
and i looked at her like O_o '..yess...i remember you' ..it was one of the union ladies that let me know i was getting transferred or layed off. i was like o great why is she here...she asked how i was doing and everything and asked when i was going to frankfort...(and id figured she would know whats going on with everyone transferring...that they stopped it all until further notice) i was just like uh i dont know...then she was like o your one of the ones who got held back (umm EVERYONE got held back) then she precreeded to tell me that the transfers might not even happen and that i might just end up staying at dominicks.... i was like o sweet...now i feel like douchebag for having a interview tomorrow with walgreens...i dont wanna leave paul and everyone if i dont have to...

so I go to work...laura leaves...so prolly like a half hour later..pete, the store manager comes up and asks if i got a minute...he decides to get me when me and paul are busy..and so i go...and we go into his office and sure enough...the two fat dumb bitches from the union are there. so i was like o great this is gunna be good.

they told me to sit down and the stupid blond one was like 'emily..i hate to be the bearer of bad news (heh yeah OKAY) ...but frankfort is no longer an option for you...but you still have shorewood and osewgo' ...yeah im glad you throw it osewgo so its like a i have choice...oswego is like 30-45 minutes away from my house...screw that.

So they sit there and try and make it sound like shorewood is sooooooo awesome and that i should soo totally go there and thats perfect i got it...uh huh.

then the blonde one decided to ask me something that pissed me off.
Dumb bitch: ...So...what do you do back there?
me: um..im a tech? ( im thinking she knows what the responsiblities of a tech are..)
dumb bitch: yeahi  know..but waht do you do...do you acutally count pills?
me: (im sure my face was like wtf..) uh...yeah...i take scripts..and put them in the computer..process insurance-
dumb bitch: oh...i thought in just this pharmacy you just ring people out.
me: (my face must of been pricless): um...no.

then i think pete butted in and let her know that paul needs me causer we were busy...so they decided to make jokes at me..the one lady with the brown hair who first talked to me asked for my number so i gave it to her...then the blond one was like 'hahwhawhaw do you give out your number to everyone?' and iw as like "what?' like wtf...ugh. i dont even know what that was but shes retarded.

the blond one was like 'o well your taking this alot better then last time...pete bought a box of tissues for you HAWHAWHAW'

and im like..jeezus christ lady...yeah i was too mad to not be depressed and plus i had walgreens as a safe fortress at the moment.



later on in the night pete tried to come over to apologize to me talking about how sorry he was that the dumb bitch asked that question about what i do...but he couldn't make a full apology cause i was too busy trying to COUNT PILLS...and then the phone rang so i had to drop that and pick it up...then he was trying to talk to paul and he was pissed too.

paul called one of his friends to complain about how bad these union ladies are.
ugh.

so..what...im gunna go to shorewood to tell them im interested..just for them to come again and let me know that i dont have that option to go there because some one else bumped me out...plus its not like ill be going there anytime soon..

so im hoping that walgreens will hire me...i hope that dharvin put in a good word for me to ron..i hope this interview will go good..and it will be more friendly then professional..i hope..*crosses fingers* i need walgreens...dominicks is screwing me over too much.

since elevi just told me that there is a rumor that after easter dominicks is gunna cut 8 cashiers...sooo that store is prolly gunna end up closing i think. screw them.

so work wasnt all too bad.

just that a nice lil print out of a drug recall printed out at like 6 and i leave at 8..and we were getting hit really hard.
i couldn't believe we were so busy today..it was rainy..and dominick's hasnt released a coupon..so i dunno..O_o

felt bad that i had to leave melissa at 8..leaving her to call those patients that were on digoxin..blah

I so don't want to go to work today...i only work 3-8 but still...week by week they are gradually cutting down my hours so its getting annoying. I'm just happy that I got a call from walgreens yesterday =] I have an interview with them on friday at 3pm. I really hope I get that job...or else im stuck with Dominicks until they finally transfer me out to friggen frankfort. thats to far for my liking.


I know walmart is an option..but honestly..I wouldn't wanna work with my boyfriend. I mean i love him and all but spending 24/7 with him all the time would probably end up getting on my nerves...and his nerves. we already see each other almost everyday..I spend the whole day at school with him and hes in all my classes. I think spending those days we dont have class at work together would be a bit too much.

I can't wait until this semester is over. I so sick of going to school at 930AM...and not getting home until 1030PM..its the worst schedule ever. Summer should be nice..just having an online econ class and geometry mon-thurs 8-1015AM..so id still have the whole day to do whatever.

Im hoping I can give blood on April 25th for nicolette's blood drive..I haven't been to any of them and I feel like a horrible friend. I never gave blood before so it should be a new experience. Scott kept telling me that im going to pass out because of my weight. I'm right on the cutoff..110 pounds haha. It doesn't matter if i pass out since nicolette no longer wants me to go to prom with her. So its all good. I can just have my mom to take me so i don't end up crashing my car.

I've been having more anixety attacks lately and thats also getting annoying. Instead of just not being able to breathe I now get shaky and have a nasty nervous feeling in my stomach that doesn't go away UGH

I'm trying to get back into watching anime and drawing again...because when i used to do that, i felt happy. I'm intrestied in actually trying to cosplay...but i cant sew for crap. Me and scott were suppose to go to Acen with scott's friend amanda and her boyfriend lou, but i dont think thats gunna happen. Im hoping in August we can go to blizzcon! I don't really play WoW anymore...but it would still be fun as hell to go! it would be cool if scott can get his friend Dingo to go also so we wont be alone. 

Since I have a bunch of foam from trying to make a keyblade (which i still need to work on) i told scott that id make him a weapon from WoW out of the foam..so that would be cool if i could do that.

Hopefully work wont be so bad today since its very gloomy and all. I'm with paul so i might ask him for the 25th off so i can give blood. but i think im off that weekend anyway...plus...i might not even be working there anymore =P mwahaha.